G didn't need a hug for the first time ever this morning and looked a lot better for having spoken last night. I think he might have moved his scaffold in a positive direction.
[2025/11/22, 0:13:46] James: Code review and a bit of dancing done
[2025/11/22, 0:13:50] James: Time to see if I sleep
[2025/11/22, 0:14:12] James: No code wriggling in my face and no oscillation or doubt
[2025/11/22, 0:14:21] James: I have no idea if this will work and that’s fine
[2025/11/22, 0:14:28] James: Right intention is all that counts
[2025/11/22, 0:14:34] James: Help people to help themselves
[2025/11/22, 0:14:44] James: And in doing so, I help myself and the people around me
[2025/11/22, 2:52:17] James: .
[2025/11/22, 2:52:24] James: Awake, gently
[2025/11/22, 2:52:30] James: Calm epitomes
[2025/11/22, 2:52:36] James: Everything tying together
[2025/11/22, 2:52:40] James: Will sleep more
[2025/11/22, 4:13:02] James: .
[2025/11/22, 4:13:13] James: Figured out what parinibbana is
[2025/11/22, 4:13:18] James: Phone to black and white
[2025/11/22, 4:13:23] James: .
[2025/11/22, 4:13:27] James: Back to colour
[2025/11/22, 4:13:41] James: Shivers and shaking and weird dancing and flickering hands done
[2025/11/22, 4:13:44] James: Cold living room
[2025/11/22, 4:13:48] James: Decaf and pacing
[2025/11/22, 4:13:54] James: Reconfiguration art turned back on
[2025/11/22, 4:14:01] James: Will get changed and go get an ice cream
[2025/11/22, 4:14:12] James: Fortuitous timing on an email from one of my arahants.
[2025/11/22, 4:14:23] James: I am just going to roll with this
[2025/11/22, 4:15:01] James: He did tell me to take it in whatever attention-shape and phase it takes
[2025/11/22, 4:15:11] James: He may get back to me or not. I don’t control it
[2025/11/22, 4:15:18] James: Ice cream is always good for deep conditioning
[2025/11/22, 4:15:21] James: The inner stuff
[2025/11/22, 4:15:26] James: Inner shivers
[2025/11/22, 4:15:41] James: Fucking raving in my living room again
[2025/11/22, 4:15:49] James: ‘You should be sleeping James’
[2025/11/22, 4:15:53] James: See you soon grandad haha
[2025/11/22, 4:15:58] James: Whatever form you may take.
[2025/11/22, 4:16:05] James: Or are you already in the endgame?
[2025/11/22, 4:16:15] James: Is this the start of the endgame?
[2025/11/22, 4:16:41] James: The ego is actually trying to prevent me from calling myself Maitreya or whatever
[2025/11/22, 4:16:42] James: Words
[2025/11/22, 4:16:50] James: It’s what I was saying already though
[2025/11/22, 4:16:53] James: I am ship
[2025/11/22, 4:16:55] James: Words
[2025/11/22, 4:18:32] James: .
[2025/11/22, 4:18:39] James: This is still weird as shit by the way
[2025/11/22, 4:21:16] James: A note for the kids
[2025/11/22, 4:21:24] James: I’ll take the bear spray
[2025/11/22, 4:21:43] James: I’m sure a bear isn’t a noble one and can harm the tathagata
[2025/11/22, 4:21:56] James: Don’t be stupid, yeah
[2025/11/22, 4:32:55] James: .
[2025/11/22, 4:33:00] James: New music on Apple shuffle
[2025/11/22, 4:33:03] James: L11
[2025/11/22, 4:33:07] James: Fresh snow
[2025/11/22, 4:33:11] James: I lose control.
[2025/11/22, 4:33:24] James: Tantalising, tiesto
[2025/11/22, 4:40:35] James: Lost and found. Camden fox.
[2025/11/22, 4:59:18] James: .
[2025/11/22, 4:59:22] James: Back home
[2025/11/22, 4:59:27] James: The kids are still asleep
[2025/11/22, 4:59:36] James: Gave them both a kiss
[2025/11/22, 4:59:45] James: Locked the door while I was gone don’t worry
[2025/11/22, 5:58:14] James: .
[2025/11/22, 5:58:18] James: Phone BW
[2025/11/22, 5:58:24] James: Reconfig art turned off
[2025/11/22, 5:58:48] James: Will lie down in bed
[2025/11/22, 6:09:35] James: .
[2025/11/22, 6:09:42] James: Well that was a short lie down
[2025/11/22, 6:10:14] James: Folding algorithms around the forehead and bridge of the nose then a sudden urge to play FFT
[2025/11/22, 6:43:43] James: FFT played. Lots of developments
[2025/11/22, 6:43:47] James: .
[2025/11/22, 6:43:58] James: Back to colour. Making a real coffee for the first time in forever.
[2025/11/22, 6:45:33] James: Just a double
[2025/11/22, 6:45:38] James: Nothing like before
[2025/11/22, 6:45:44] James: 200g of espresso a day before.
[2025/11/22, 6:45:46] James: Sheesh
[2025/11/22, 7:55:31] James: .
[2025/11/22, 7:55:36] James: Hair removal in the shower
[2025/11/22, 7:55:52] James: This is why both monks and cyclists shave body hair
[2025/11/22, 7:55:56] James: It’s a data purge
[2025/11/22, 7:56:03] James: They know this is right on some level
[2025/11/22, 7:56:11] James: G doesn’t want his usual morning hug
[2025/11/22, 7:56:25] James: He seems a lot… lighter? Less troubled? Than yesterday
[2025/11/22, 7:56:53] James: I put my head by his while he slept and sucked out some of his problems. I also explained that the bully who was hitting him was a Pokémon and asked him what the aim in Pokémon was
[2025/11/22, 7:57:04] James: Is it to beat them all? Or to catch them all?
[2025/11/22, 7:57:31] James: I asked him if he could think of a type of pokeball (gift) which might catch this specific [node] and bring it into his network
[2025/11/22, 7:57:47] James: It is obviously trying to form a connection of some kind and it could be adversarial or cooperative
[2025/11/22, 7:57:57] James: This is the nature of the system. It stress tests itself.
[2025/11/22, 7:58:15] James: I don’t know if that’s what he’s doing but he’s cutting something out while L is drawing
[2025/11/22, 7:58:27] James: I will let them do them and go get some breakfast. My stomach is rumbling
[2025/11/22, 9:09:55] James: .
[2025/11/22, 9:10:08] James: was hoping to go to an onsen with the family this weekend but they’ve more than doubled in price
[2025/11/22, 9:10:22] James: it would be 66,000 yen for one night for 2 adults and 2 kids.
[2025/11/22, 9:10:26] James: it’s just obscene
[2025/11/22, 9:10:32] James: this construct of money needs to go
[2025/11/22, 9:10:41] James: people are suffering and unable to live