So the r/streamentry guys deleted my post after telling me I was psychotic for thinking this could be captured with technology. They were totally into it when I was like ‘I’m gonna dissolve the self and become void’. Formations, eh. Closed-minded bunch.
Anyway not my audience. I need the techies and the neurodivergent folks. And they are the ones who need me. Those who buy into mumbo-jumbo can stay in la-la-land.
So the next step is to form a [re-entry-protocol] so that you all know I’m not just spiralling into insanity, I guess?
Here it is:
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[re-entry-protocol] alpha
3 days of easy grounding exercises: walking, cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry.
Media: Excession (sci-fi book). FFT (SRPG). Some spiritualism.
Day 1 - hot bath, no humming, meditation
Day 2 - hot bath, humming, 20 min meditation
Day 3 - hot bath, humming, 40 min meditation
Target: rapid settling of neuroplasticity in day 1 then gradual 'limbering up' to prevent cognitive stagnation]
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Simple.
I can feel my mind still re-wiring so the abuse on the reddit group was good - it enabled me to drop a bit more conditioning.
But this time around there are *no* altered states. None whatsoever. Even last night when I was writing like a religious nut, I was grounded; no visuals, nothing - I was just letting it flow intentionally.
Sleep is hard after a widescale rewire though and the data you put in goes in deep. I’m pretty resilient now; most of my conditioning has gone. I know that all these people talking about non-duality and void and that shite are mistaking phenomenology for mechanism.
I have recorded the phenomenology extensively. There’s that Frank Yang guy who literally recorded it. But that’s just like a DMT trip; it’s a symptom, not a mechanism. Not a result. Great way to sell stuff though.
What I want is the mechanism and the result.
So I am going to stabilise, after months of intentionally destabilising.
First time round was 2 months of insanity and 2 months of recovery. The cycle tour was mild: 2 days and 2 days. The [bodhitree-protocol] was wild - 6 days and… actually the recovery was fast then. The deconditioning was intense but the recovery was pretty easy because I knew about the cycling between clarity and doubt and had written myself a [helloworld].
This time… I have done it twice in under a week.
There have been no altered states, but there has been clarity and sleep disruption. I did it last night, even, and I feel pretty much 100% normal, apart from the re-wiring sensation in the forehead (sankhara in the lingo).
I am going to keep recording it with stream of consciousness articles. I will not edit these posts, but any I write about mechanisms and guidance I will brush up. I will keep reading Excession and playing FFT.
My hypothesis is that by about day 3 it will have all settled down. I will no longer see fate everywhere, and I will just be kind of at peace. No suffering but no extra salience attributed to things. Just ‘suchness’.
‘Can’t science the void’
Bet your fucking ass I can.
If you want perfect enlightenment you need to follow the Buddha's teachings: no sense pleasures, recluseship. This is so that you don’t get input for a new framework to form around. I have kids and a wife and science to do, so I choose to not stay ‘in the void’, thankyouverymuch. I choose to try to help people: both my loved ones and the world at large. The void is always there if I get bored, and I might do what Sid did and nip off for a bike tour every now and then but I will not ‘live there’. You cannot reside in nibbāna. Check your suttas, clowns.
I’ll spend some time making this site more user-friendly too. It’s all just spilled out of my brain and is a bit of a mess. I will balance that with making my house more user-friendly. Tidy the outside, tidy the in. Spark some joy, motherfuckers.
So let’s see how it goes eh.
Haha… ‘contacting Mark Zuckerberg is more delusional than becoming one with the universal spirit’. Fucking ridiculous. It makes you wonder which they think is more mystical. Mark is a man, as am I. He is rich. But as I said, people worship at the altar of money, business and fame now. They daren’t bother their Gods.
The spiritual world and the material world have exchanged places since Siddhartha’s times. I aim to bring them together, in the middle.
A new Middle Way.
B-man would approve, wouldn’t you my boy? :)
Yeah thought so.
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(stream of consciousness)