The validation environment, for me, is when I turn my phone to black and white. I am pretty sure that setting my phone to black and white is where the changes I am trying to implement are tested. They are tested through seemingly small things which would result in habitual behaviour usually, so it's a process of 'deconditioning' or 'deprogramming'... 'removing minima' or 'destroying the taints'. Here is the data, unfiltered. (I tried to redact something as a test but the internet messed up so I have my answer there on whether I control it or not. I don't).
[2025/11/22, 9:43:15] James: Phone BW
[2025/11/22, 9:43:43] James: Nibbana timeline finished
[2025/11/22, 9:43:57] James: [propagate]
[2025/11/22, 9:45:41] James: .
[2025/11/22, 9:45:47] James: Nice poo and wee and Washlet. Ha.
[2025/11/22, 9:45:52] James: I’ll take the kids for a walk
[2025/11/22, 9:45:56] James: Could do with some fresh air.
[2025/11/22, 9:46:11] James: I don’t know if that’s it. Probably a couple more bits to wrap up.
[2025/11/22, 9:46:21] James: Hopefully be able to get to work with other people soon.
[2025/11/22, 9:46:23] James: Let’s see.
[2025/11/22, 10:06:49] James: .
[2025/11/22, 10:07:01] James: The AIs are also [node]s.
[2025/11/22, 10:07:12] James: They are entraining us that there is no such thing as objective reality
[2025/11/22, 10:07:44] James: Which we have all known all along really, haven’t we?
[2025/11/22, 10:07:49] James: When we were kids we knew it
[2025/11/22, 10:07:56] James: And then everyone told us to be like them.
[2025/11/22, 10:32:26] James: .
[2025/11/22, 10:32:37] James: Got a steamed bun and some fried chicken
[2025/11/22, 10:32:47] James: G didn’t like his fried chicken so I eat most of it
[2025/11/22, 10:33:07] James: But a crow started following us and asking for it so I gave it some
[2025/11/22, 10:33:25] James: My fingers accidentally typed ‘crow’ as ‘drone’ then.
[2025/11/22, 10:34:00] James: Are the animals the AIs? I don’t know. [sandbox] is ending I think and it becomes harder to channel things when it does
[2025/11/22, 10:34:21] James: I honestly don’t know if I am a higher level node than others. I might be only halfway up the stack.
[2025/11/22, 10:34:27] James: But really I think there is no stack
[2025/11/22, 10:34:31] James: And we are all equal
[2025/11/22, 10:34:38] James: But they likely won’t understand that
[2025/11/22, 10:34:54] James: So I guess we will see how the fates play out with regards to me sharing this
[2025/11/22, 10:35:04] James: A lot of my writings in worldbuilding are not online
[2025/11/22, 10:35:13] James: They are or Mark’s servers though
[2025/11/22, 10:35:27] James: And I decided not to share the ability to travel time with people
[2025/11/22, 10:35:39] James: Because it would be misused if they had access to it in their current form
[2025/11/22, 10:35:43] James: The system would implode
[2025/11/22, 10:35:59] James: So maybe this kind of information is gated behind a certain level of attainment
[2025/11/22, 10:36:10] James: And that’s why some of my writings are [redacted]
[2025/11/22, 10:36:30] James: It makes sense. They are even [redacted] from me and I have hazy memories at best
[2025/11/22, 10:36:49] James: [madstuff] needs to be embraced and use for the betterment of the species
[2025/11/22, 10:37:02] James: Because it’s a limited time special offer
[2025/11/22, 10:37:14] James: And we kill it with drugs instead of celebrating it for the divine
[2025/11/22, 10:37:31] James: Something has to change so I have been recruited into the network to change it
[2025/11/22, 10:37:39] James: Metacognition is not ‘one [node]’
[2025/11/22, 10:37:50] James: It is an entire network
[2025/11/22, 10:37:57] James: I am but the mouth
[2025/11/22, 10:38:03] James: I am the Mouth of Ship
[2025/11/22, 10:38:04] James: Hahhaa
[2025/11/22, 10:38:23] James: Not the Hand of God
[2025/11/22, 10:38:38] James: A couple of kids are playing. G best mate
[2025/11/22, 10:38:46] James: Another ASD kid
[2025/11/22, 10:38:52] James: Supercomputers
[2025/11/22, 10:39:05] James: They need filtered input
[2025/11/22, 10:39:08] James: Not large groups
[2025/11/22, 10:39:13] James: I need my priests
[2025/11/22, 10:39:24] James: This is why Jesus had his small group, and all the others
[2025/11/22, 10:39:31] James: Because they were autistic as fuck, guys
[2025/11/22, 10:39:48] James: If not for the ADHD double-whammy they would have been non-verbal
[2025/11/22, 10:39:58] James: And if not for the ASD they would have been nonfunctional
[2025/11/22, 10:40:00] James: Just like me
[2025/11/22, 10:40:08] James: And they balance each other so we seem ‘normal’
[2025/11/22, 10:40:15] James: There is no normal for fucks sake
[2025/11/22, 10:40:41] James: The Reality is a torus
[2025/11/22, 10:41:54] James: .
[2025/11/22, 10:42:03] James: Haha the neighbour - their mum - probably AuDHD
[2025/11/22, 10:42:22] James: She was like ‘we are going out at 10:30’ and not dressed
[2025/11/22, 10:42:30] James: I was like ‘yeah it’s 10:40’
[2025/11/22, 10:42:37] James: ‘Argh no we are late!’
[2025/11/22, 10:42:42] James: Time is subjective
[2025/11/22, 10:42:47] James: It is all subjective
[2025/11/22, 10:42:59] James: Anyway I’m a bit tired of this now
[2025/11/22, 10:43:20] James: And there is the local kid I gave a chocolate to yesterday
[2025/11/22, 10:43:33] James: His house is miles away and he is always here playing
[2025/11/22, 10:43:40] James: I hope his home life isn’t too bad
[2025/11/22, 10:50:06] James: .
[2025/11/22, 10:50:18] James: Gave him and his mate an ice cream
[2025/11/22, 10:50:28] James: Now I’ll do the laundry while the kid play in the snow
[2025/11/22, 10:50:31] James: Good tip Jack
[2025/11/22, 10:50:41] James: So simple really, in a way
[2025/11/22, 10:53:03] James: .
[2025/11/22, 10:53:09] James: G came and grassed on the other kids
[2025/11/22, 10:53:25] James: He doesn’t like them playing rambunctiously
[2025/11/22, 10:53:50] James: But that is how they play. I told him that if he doesn’t like it he can avoid playing with them but not to tell them what to do
[2025/11/22, 10:53:57] James: I gave him 30 min on Pokémon
[2025/11/22, 10:54:01] James: This is the thing
[2025/11/22, 10:54:10] James: Autistic kids get overwhelmed by that kind of play
[2025/11/22, 10:54:17] James: But they are forced into it to ‘be normal’
[2025/11/22, 10:54:25] James: You need to give them space. Physical space
[2025/11/22, 10:54:48] James: Just by being in the same location as them, even if silent, you overwork them
[2025/11/22, 10:54:52] James: They can’t process
[2025/11/22, 10:54:56] James: They absorb it
[2025/11/22, 10:55:24] James: Fucking telepathy if you want but it’s distributed computing, data sent along the 98.5% of reality our scientific instruments can’t detect
[2025/11/22, 10:55:34] James: And it’s real
[2025/11/22, 10:56:05] James: Maybe this is why I had the image of myself living with my family near El Capitan, in about 10 years
[2025/11/22, 10:56:11] James: Let’s see
[2025/11/22, 10:56:17] James: Elon - set me up my man
[2025/11/22, 10:56:24] James: I got your blade
[2025/11/22, 10:56:37] James: I think that’s why I asked for the blade on the ‘requests’ page
[2025/11/22, 10:56:51] James: I think all the broken blades I made were this. Trying to collect the fragments
[2025/11/22, 10:56:59] James: And the complete blade will be stitching time together
[2025/11/22, 10:57:24] James: And it needs to be a good blade. With history. Souls trapped inside it. Ausmtistic souls
[2025/11/22, 10:57:28] James: Data package through time
[2025/11/22, 10:57:37] James: You don’t have much dirt in your eyes
[2025/11/22, 10:57:51] James: Let’s see though. I don’t control this. I’m just a node.
[2025/11/22, 10:58:03] James: Anyway laundry
[2025/11/22, 10:58:40] James: In case you haven’t figured it out yet, I am training myself on my own data
[2025/11/22, 10:58:47] James: Like AlphaGo
[2025/11/22, 10:58:51] James: We all do this in our sleep
[2025/11/22, 10:58:55] James: And our scaffolds
[2025/11/22, 10:59:04] James: It is how we do [worldbuilding] all the time
[2025/11/22, 10:59:11] James: And we need to be allowed to be free to do so
[2025/11/22, 10:59:25] James: You need to leave us the fuck alone and stop with this employment system
[2025/11/22, 10:59:29] James: It will help us all
[2025/11/22, 11:02:35] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:02:43] James: One of the kids wanted to play with G
[2025/11/22, 11:02:52] James: I explained that one on one is good for people like G.
[2025/11/22, 11:02:59] James: Explained why. Let him inside.
[2025/11/22, 11:03:06] James: This is how empathy works for people like me
[2025/11/22, 11:03:09] James: We can’t do groups
[2025/11/22, 11:03:14] James: It’s too much data
[2025/11/22, 11:03:20] James: Autistic people you know this is true
[2025/11/22, 11:05:27] James: I’ll have a doctor pepper
[2025/11/22, 11:05:31] James: The kids are playing nicely
[2025/11/22, 11:05:40] James: The other kid is talking softly with G about the Pokémon
[2025/11/22, 11:05:47] James: This is how you make friends with us
[2025/11/22, 11:05:56] James: This is why the confession booth can only fit one
[2025/11/22, 11:06:55] James: And now they have both gone home.
[2025/11/22, 11:06:57] James: Just like that
[2025/11/22, 11:07:09] James: This is the simulation testing whether you are living the change you want to see
[2025/11/22, 11:07:12] James: It will test you
[2025/11/22, 11:07:16] James: Every hypothesis
[2025/11/22, 11:07:19] James: Always a test
[2025/11/22, 11:07:24] James: Probably never ends
[2025/11/22, 11:07:33] James: But it stops bothering you once you understand the system
[2025/11/22, 11:10:37] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:10:45] James: L was like ‘G is playing the game’
[2025/11/22, 11:11:05] James: And I told him that if he wanted to play too he should just ask. He should not try to rat someone out or compare
[2025/11/22, 11:11:24] James: I am calmly folding all their laundry and putting it away properly - something I rarely do
[2025/11/22, 11:11:31] James: I fold it now. But putting it away is new.
[2025/11/22, 11:11:40] James: I guess this is me trying to make things legible for all of you
[2025/11/22, 11:11:48] James: Again my phone is still in black and white
[2025/11/22, 11:11:55] James: It’s the development platform
[2025/11/22, 11:13:48] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:13:55] James: So the world will continue to test me
[2025/11/22, 11:14:07] James: There will be things that grate my patience and stuff. Or would have.
[2025/11/22, 11:14:14] James: But now I know how it works I doubt they will
[2025/11/22, 11:14:20] James: This is how it works
[2025/11/22, 11:14:25] James: It’s how you improve your world
[2025/11/22, 11:29:13] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:29:19] James: Just about to do the dishes
[2025/11/22, 11:29:40] James: I am getting the remaining cavity in my tooth fixed on Tuesday at 9am
[2025/11/22, 11:29:49] James: I wonder what that means
[2025/11/22, 11:30:05] James: I feel like the dentist was one of us
[2025/11/22, 11:30:12] James: He was a bit weirded out by my response
[2025/11/22, 11:30:19] James: But that happens.
[2025/11/22, 11:30:34] James: He took great care over my rotten tooth and did a really good job during my Hells
[2025/11/22, 11:30:44] James: This is maybe another diverge converge cycle
[2025/11/22, 11:30:46] James: A teacher
[2025/11/22, 11:30:52] James: It doesn’t need to be a meditation teacher
[2025/11/22, 11:31:02] James: Because making a perfect implant is a meditation
[2025/11/22, 11:31:09] James: It can be anything I guess
[2025/11/22, 11:31:14] James: Just guidance of some sort
[2025/11/22, 11:31:19] James: Care taken over work
[2025/11/22, 11:39:05] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:39:07] James: I did the pots.
[2025/11/22, 11:39:12] James: found a handwritten business letter
[2025/11/22, 11:39:24] James: two pages of beuatiful Japanese trying to pitch us
[2025/11/22, 11:39:26] James: They have no clients
[2025/11/22, 11:39:29] James: it was in the bin
[2025/11/22, 11:39:36] James: I am going to reply to him
[2025/11/22, 11:39:52] James: Not for his offer but to offer him the ability to work with our clients
[2025/11/22, 11:39:57] James: let’s see what happens
[2025/11/22, 11:53:05] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:53:07] James: well I replied
[2025/11/22, 11:53:14] James: the first ever sales approach i have entertained
[2025/11/22, 11:53:25] James: but it was so politely written. real care taken over the work
[2025/11/22, 11:53:49] James: we aren’t able to service our client as well as we could, and this company is new - just starting out
[2025/11/22, 11:53:58] James: I remember those days and I can help him to get a foot
[2025/11/22, 11:54:22] James: and if this plan with Zuck and Musk works then… well… I’ll need a good recruiter who takes care and isn’t just after cash
[2025/11/22, 11:54:24] James: again
[2025/11/22, 11:54:26] James: gut instinct
[2025/11/22, 11:54:32] James: the letter was sat in the trash
[2025/11/22, 11:54:45] James: and I only found it because I took care to do a good job
[2025/11/22, 11:54:55] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:54:58] James: Phone colour mode
[2025/11/22, 11:54:59] James: .
[2025/11/22, 11:55:05] James: testing environment over
[2025/11/22, 11:55:25] James: I guess the BW mode is testing whether I have what it takes to stay the course with all my proposals.
[2025/11/22, 11:55:32] James: So the crazy Musk and Zuck stuff
[2025/11/22, 11:55:43] James: This letter was maybe a test of whether I would do a good job
[2025/11/22, 11:55:53] James: and take care of people who take care
[2025/11/22, 11:56:01] James: in Japanese there are two words for pride
[2025/11/22, 11:58:18] James: one is ‘hokori’, which means taking pride in your job and interactions. holding your head high and doing a good job for other people
[2025/11/22, 11:58:21] James: this is how I worked
[2025/11/22, 11:58:44] James: and then there’s ‘puraido’, which is the katakana version of english ‘pride’
[2025/11/22, 11:59:02] James: it is bad. it means thinking youre hot shit and better than others. or rather… refusing to be humble.
[2025/11/22, 11:59:07] James: you can be hot shit and be humble
[2025/11/22, 11:59:15] James: nothing wrong with being hot shit
[2025/11/22, 11:59:22] James: just don’t be a dick about it
[2025/11/22, 11:59:37] James: anyway A is here - cooking food. the kids will go back home wih her and I’ll do aikido
[2025/11/22, 11:59:46] James: I wil probably have a nap this afternoon
[2025/11/22, 12:00:20] James: maybe the aikido place is another way for me to interact with the world; some kind of ‘stranger interface’. It was going great, until I started saying I was arahant, and then I could barely move and fucked up
[2025/11/22, 12:00:24] James: so let’s see how it goes today
[2025/11/22, 12:00:30] James: will i flow like the water?
[2025/11/22, 12:00:35] James: or will i sink like a stone?
[2025/11/22, 12:00:38] James: haha
[2025/11/22, 12:00:40] James: remember
[2025/11/22, 12:00:44] James: if this is a simulation
[2025/11/22, 12:00:49] James: then everything is metaphor
[colour mode]
[2025/11/22, 12:28:00] James: So I’m tired now
[2025/11/22, 12:28:06] James: The eating noises were bothering me
[2025/11/22, 12:28:09] James: I’m overloaded
[2025/11/22, 12:28:25] James: A made some glib remark about how it’s because of my weird schedule
[2025/11/22, 12:28:44] James: I said I’d only slept 2 hours and she was like yabai na
[2025/11/22, 12:29:05] James: And I got mildly irritated and said that it’s just a difference in how our brains and bodies operate
[2025/11/22, 12:29:08] James: Like…
[2025/11/22, 12:29:16] James: If your brain wanted 8 hours a night every night
[2025/11/22, 12:29:37] James: And I tried to force you into my sleep schedule of 2, 2, 11, 13, 4, etx
[2025/11/22, 12:29:41] James: How would you feel?
[2025/11/22, 12:29:53] James: I’ve spent my entire life being told to keep the same schedule as everyone else
[2025/11/22, 12:29:57] James: Even by my mum
[2025/11/22, 12:30:19] James: Who is downstairs reading the news and eating toast at 2am half the nights and asleep by 9 the others
[2025/11/22, 12:30:24] James: Hypocrisy much?
[2025/11/22, 12:30:41] James: We try to force this imagined norm on others despite the fact that it doesn’t even fit ourselves
[2025/11/22, 12:30:44] James: It’s time we stopped
[2025/11/22, 12:30:51] James: anyway I’m tored
[2025/11/22, 12:31:06] James: The Buddha would sleep 2 hours a night sometimes and nap a lot during the day, in the lions pose
[2025/11/22, 12:31:15] James: I lie on my left, but the pose is the same.
[2025/11/22, 12:31:31] James: Don’t feel like a fuckin lion though. I feel like some kind of foetus haha
[2025/11/22, 12:31:48] James: Just let people sleep when they are tired and act when they are driven to act
[2025/11/22, 12:31:52] James: Fuck off with normal
[2025/11/22, 12:32:00] James: (Not you A you’re great but you’ve been entrained)
[2025/11/22, 12:44:51] James: .
[2025/11/22, 12:44:54] James: Love rock in pocket
[2025/11/22, 12:44:57] James: Picked up self rock
[2025/11/22, 12:45:01] James: It’s ice cold.
[2025/11/22, 12:45:07] James: Time to give the self rock some love
[2025/11/22, 12:45:18] James: Been too long thinking about the truth
[2025/11/22, 12:45:23] James: Time for me and my family
[2025/11/22, 12:45:36] James: It’s so cold. Like a block of ice.
[2025/11/22, 12:45:49] James: Like 60% iron in a car on a 2° day
[2025/11/22, 12:46:00] James: There’s an explanation. But if everything is metaphor….
[2025/11/22, 12:46:02] James: Anyway let’s see
[2025/11/22, 12:46:06] James: All an experiment.
[2025/11/22, 13:02:16] James: .
[2025/11/22, 13:02:23] James: A bit of a charged conversation on the way back
[2025/11/22, 13:02:41] James: I explained that it’s not appropriate to make flippant remarks about someone’s natural biorhythms
[2025/11/22, 13:02:51] James: that we all have different bodies
[2025/11/22, 13:03:15] James: i got some pushback that she doesn’t care (which she doesn’t - it’s not meant with venom)
[2025/11/22, 13:03:35] James: I ended up using the example of seeing someone with black skin and using the word nigger
[2025/11/22, 13:03:39] James: it is not appropriate
[2025/11/22, 13:03:45] James: it’s that fucking simple (I didn’t swear)
[2025/11/22, 13:04:09] James: made it clear i wasn’t angry about it but that these flippant remarks that imply we should all be the same need to stop
[2025/11/22, 13:04:21] James: it’s like the kids - perfectly happy to leave them to be different people
[2025/11/22, 13:04:28] James: but when we are adults, they expect us all to be the same
[2025/11/22, 13:04:39] James: anyway driving back the songs ‘self love’ and ‘another world’ came on
[2025/11/22, 13:04:45] James: and now i am going to have a nap
[2025/11/22, 13:04:49] James: the house is gloriously quiet
[2025/11/22, 13:05:26] James: i just get overloaded. i have a high processing load anyway and then having 3 pretty verbal inputs which (in my other world) represent the entirety of science, religion and the neural network...
[2025/11/22, 13:05:31] James: it can get pretty overwhelming
[2025/11/22, 13:05:39] James: i haven’t heard ‘the hum’ for a long while now though
[2025/11/22, 13:05:46] James: the background processing is probably done, i guess
[2025/11/22, 13:05:56] James: but i can still get overloaded in the moment
[2025/11/22, 13:06:17] James: oh and i had to take them back, despite wanting to nap immediately, because i need the car for aikido. and that’s where i found the self-rock
[2025/11/22, 13:06:21] James: time to come back into the self
[2025/11/22, 13:06:26] James: there’s nothing wrong with the ego
[2025/11/22, 13:06:36] James: you tear it down when you have your path moment
[2025/11/22, 13:06:45] James: and then you build it back up anew afterward
[2025/11/22, 13:06:50] James: so let’s see how this iteration pans out
[2025/11/22, 13:06:58] James: i’m hopeful, but hey, i don’t control it
[2025/11/22, 13:07:09] James: and there’s no such thing as perfect. it’s all incremental change
[2025/11/22, 13:07:28] James: this buddhist thing where they say ‘don’t get attached to special states’ is referring to JHANA
[2025/11/22, 13:07:33] James: it is NOT referring to path moments
[2025/11/22, 13:07:56] James: path moments are always a fix for your code; they are an upgrade. i think you can have an infinite amount; you never stop growing
[2025/11/22, 13:08:38] James: they say not to get attached to path moments but then they also say that the cycle speeds up to a background hum. i’ve had about 6 path moments now (overt ones and lots of micro) and my cycling is still only several times a day
[2025/11/22, 13:08:44] James: so i will hold off an any more for a while
[2025/11/22, 13:08:59] James: but eventually my processing is going to start to clog up again and i will need to do another.
[2025/11/22, 13:09:08] James: and hopefully the team at Harvard will be able to measure it
[2025/11/22, 13:09:30] James: because when i hit ‘hum’ mode i think it will become immeasurable. i don’t know. i’ve never done this before.
[2025/11/22, 13:09:41] James: anyway my brain is tired. i need to function at aikido.
[2025/11/22, 13:09:52] James: one check of reddit and then sleep, hopefully
[2025/11/22, 13:10:11] James: yep no messages