decision

Decisions are best approached as a markov decision process. All experience to date merely served to teach you the rules of the game. The board is set. What is the best move?

Life is just a repetition of this. Layout? Best move. Layout? Best move.

Maybe this is a feature of short memory; the fact that I can’t hold a domino chain in mind. Maybe this is also why I am good at tangential thinking.

In the macro, follow your gut. The asd has been working things out in the background. The more you deliberate, the more you allow adhd to get a foot in the door.

This is why big decisions are easy and small ones are hard. Asd has already done the big ones but the small ones have to be real-time. 

Risk assessment tends to be based on consequence rather than likelihood. ‘How irreversible is this decision’ and ‘how wrong can it go’ are the key things; not the likelihood.

But in the micro my risk assessment can be way off because adhd is in charge; I can wind up talking to some pretty dangerous people like they’re old buddies.

So for large decisions, follow your gut. For small decisions, try to follow your gut. Your head is almost always wrong.

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