reprogramming

There’s the programming of a persona, sure, but I also intentionally reprogrammed my narrative around events so I could keep going.

There’s positive change to be instigated through most painful situations. Easy examples would be finding this dead body and looking into mental health, or getting ‘kicked out’ of England then turning it into our decision and owning it. The narrative is everything.

Seligman’s learned optimism and William James’ ownership of life

Anyway you can take most things and over the course of a few weeks or months you can reprogram them into something more agreeable to your psyche. Touch and go, fast and sharp, when you’re motivated. If you don’t do this intentionally then your mind will do it for you, and probably not positively.

Dopamine is responsible for encoding preferences; positive or negative. It also modulates tone and salience of memories. When I took aripiprazole and was ‘high’ for a week I was telling my family that my psyche was very receptive. I was also pretty obnoxious about it - oops.

The fluctuation in dopamine in the adhd brain likely results in differences on this front; I know I can reprogram myself a lot easier than acquaintances. But that’s maybe because of a lifetime of practice. And autism. And god knows what.

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