audhd

solution: 1mg aripiprazole (dopamine, serotonin), 3mg guanfacine (norepinephrine), 400mg valproate (gaba; tapering carefully)

system symptoms spirituality strategies a repo for James 2.0

British, in Japan 20 years, built one of the world's first AI recruitment companies, high level athletic achievement, ex-alcoholic, total burnout. Many and varied experiences, broad and shallow knowledge of a lot of topics, and I've just found out I'm audhd so unpacking here. 20k words in 10 days.

Facts might be checked later but for now this is a thought experiment and me building a sustainable foundation for the second half of life. I started this determined to get aripiprazole to the world but my motivation is being undermined by its clinical effects. A bit of a catch 22.

I start threads and finish them over the course of a few days. Some will be incomplete. This website is for me, anyway; it'll be ready when it's ready. 

These is the raw data I am currently brushing up. It's written stream-of-consciousness and not for public consumption.

interests tired sense loops sleep rebirth karma 

emotion daydream fighter channelling cartography divine talk

morality hyperfocus addiction tug thread track death

identity defence processing breakdown state credibility rsd

I am experimenting with structures and shuffling things around as I output. Priority is output and I will arrange pieces later. Journally stuff here:

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this poem fell out fully-formed shortly before my mask-of-masks imploded.

good books: adhd unpacked the autistic brain

status: 2.0b3.0.0 // consolidating environment data

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