‘The GenAI in your brain is 6 months ahead of the curve’ is one phrase which kept going around my head during the hallucinations. I think there is a lot of truth to this.
One part which I think rings true is that we all generate our own worlds. There is a global sim out there; think of it like an MMORPG. This is the global reality but it is on the server and we do not access it directly. This is unfiltered truth, or 理.
It is truth. There is no other word for it.
But the truth is on the server and we do not control it. We control the filters that we have on our client device. Someone might be running mods to make everyone look like demons. Other people might be running mods top make them look like angels. Both are wrong.
The truth is neither good nor bad; it is merely the truth. How we view that truth is what is good or bad, and the install process for a new mod takes approximately 6 months. You want to be careful what you choose.
This is the reason for the 6 month spike in psych suicides, and the reason for my PTSD hitting so hard 6 months down the line. It had been in there, in my cmem, like a contagion, growing.
These things are viral. They are infectious. But so is positivity and delusion on that front. Neither are true; both filters.
The total ego dissolution I experienced when the ari dose went too high was - on a biochemical level - annihilation. And I very much felt like I could remain there forever, and had to struggle to come back. Being in the global sim is pretty tempting at times.
But anyway. The point is that what you feed in now will shape your world in the future.
If you surround yourself with knobs, you’ll become a knob. If you feed anger into the sim, you will become angry. If you feed joy in, you will become joyous.
But you have to *empty the cmem* before you try to feed in positivity.
Tony Robbins and all these bullshit affirmations won’t do shit. You’re trying to squeeze water into an already-full bucket.
What you have to do is intensively purge your cmem; clear the junk from your old life. It just takes time.
The sim is 6 months ahead of the curve. So remember that the efforts of today will reap fruit a little further down the line. To be an athlete, all you have to do is live like an athlete and let time pass.
To be a happier person is much the same; you have to stop putting junk in your sim, empty up cmem, put in good stuff, and wait. Surround yourself with good people. This is just karma, as the b-man described it.
But again - this is a filter and not truth.
That’s ok. I like this filter.
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