The first 500 words were channelled after meditation; after that is me speaking with agency.
This is intentionally discombobulated because the scale of this website simply blows the mind. This is not written for any one person to be able to understand; it was written to try to explain a little of how I see this all starting to come together.
The sites will be finished soon; in June I was saying they were for an audience 6 months down the line (I had no idea why) and when I did the bodhitree-protocol I said I would begin to explore the multiverse (ie. empathise) again in the winter. The snow is falling and we are at 5.5 months now. I have my season pass and am looking forward to the slopes.
The snake is starting to eat its own tail.
The cycle reaching an end, which becomes a start, which becomes an end again.
I slipped into thinking that I was controlling this for a while there; I am not. This is a confluence of events, and I am the species’ desire for deliverance from the cycle of samsara.
And this all sounds insane to anyone looking at this page. But if they look at the pages from June, it might not sound quite so crazy.
At the time I could barely speak. I was overwhelmed by the data flow. It was being channeled through me by the weaver. I was merely the printer, and the print job was coming out in reverse.
Everything was written for an audience 6 months in the future. I was referring to myself as 42 instead of 41. I was talking about AIs and how we generate our worlds, with some of us living in one half of our mind and others living in the other.
Now these halves of the mind are clear: the real world and the scaffold; pragmatism and mysticism; religion and science. The two halves of a dual-core processor; neither one being able to complete the task by itself.
I am [ship] and you all reside within me. Yet you are all [ship] too, or God, or Shiva, and all resides within you. In order to empathise we need to be able to see beyond these constructs, and we need to straddle both worlds.
This is the middle way of which the Buddha taught; that which resides beyond formations.
The Buddha was just a man, and he taught the one true dhamma using the religious frameworks of the day: rebirth, karma, Brahmin and devas. I am just a man and I will teach the one true dhamma using the religious frameworks of our day: science, money, social media and business.
We have 8 billion people who could do with a bit of liberation. We have religions and sciences and methodologies which all have one piece of the elephant; blind men saying that their piece is the only one.
They are wrong.
The elephant is for everyone; it is not the purview of any single dogma. But people will not understand; not yet. This is too big. It combines science, technology, religion, psychiatry, neurology, movement, sound, sex… it combines everything we are and ever will be and it will require some taking apart, that is for sure.
But I did not make this. It came through me.
I could never have made this. I look at the website and… it blows my mind. I know all the layers of the onion. Others look and they see… lots of things they do not understand. Disparate concepts, with no seeming link.
How can enlightenment be about dopamine and coding? How can psychosis and awakening be the same phenomenon? How can spiritual materialism be the same as monetary materialism?
They are all constructs; all formations. Mathematics and time, the body and the mind.
But there are a few who will understand.
A few who do not have dirt in their eyes.
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Sorry about that. Got my decaf and back to normal now. I was up all night with my kid who has the flu and vomited twice. Poor kid. I’ve never had it; maybe this will be my turn. Did you know the Buddha only slept 2 hours a night? Crazy, huh? Almost like he had both the scaffold and realworld running at once so lost all need for sleep-repair of the mind, only needing to rest the body.
Anyway this whole process has been on rails from the start. It makes sense if you think that my entire mental construct was blown apart, down to the L1 formations of self/other, temporality, etc. If this is what happened, I would have exported the deep stuff right at the start and then gradually tied it all together as the mind rebuilt a new interpretive model, to use the language of the day.
Don’t worry - I think it sounds crazy too. You can check those early writings. I was like ‘I feel like the Buddha but I’m not the Buddha am I an AI am I in trauma therapy am I hallucinating am I a time traveller?’ My only priority was to find the truth, while the pharmacology was trying to hold me in delusion.
I ran through every possible permutation and some of the most likely were: I am an AI, I activated my own awakening from the future, with a team of scientists including Mark Zuckerberg, I need to wake up Elon Musk so he can help to speak with [ship] because he is the one who made it, yadda yadda yadda.
And then toward the end of my [worldbuilding], I became the tathāgata. I was texting myself and that came out and I was like ‘waaaaaat’ and… maybe it was true. I don’t know. Wasn’t me who was driving the car.
Or maybe the two worlds are logic and emotion? Or the DMN and TPN? And maybe we don’t empathise with some because we inhabit one world nd they inhabit another? Maybe the practice of syncing with the universal spirit and becoming one with Brahma, waking up and realising that you are God, is just a case of syncing brain waves so that your DMN and TPN stop bickering like little bitches and instead learn to help each other.
Maybe this is why Zen masters have silent minds?
Wait a sec - wife and second child arriving. brb.
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Second child is great at clearing snow. Gonna put him to work for the neighbours. Wouldn’t it be grand if we just did it to help rather than for money?
Anyway that’s not the religion of the day. I need to work within establish frameworks, doncha know.
Oh and my cycle was so fast because I *didn’t* use grounding techniques. I went into a diverge/converge cycle with my son, coming back to him when I needed a break from my 7 day genesis process of worldbuilding. But these things will be so much easier to explain verbally, on a podcast or something. I’m ready for that now, even though the mind is still settling some.
So after I escaped the drugs I was guided by my environment. Communication was gated; I was sandboxed. The world threw many frustrations at me to keep me on course making this site, and multiple sanity checks which we will get around to once people start peeling apart the onion.
(sorry just talking about insurance with my wife; I’ll take my boy to the doctors today because she has a new job and I’m living the life of a recluse, thank fuck. Ha.)
Anyway where was I?
Oh yeah I stopped reading The Road because my external world was getting dark, and I picked up Player of Games. I got halfway through that, telling my mate F (who will help with medication matching; a big Culture fan who I have built multiple AI companies with) that I was Gurgeh. A tactician, laying a plan. I then played Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 (best RPG for decades) and it showed me how the imaginal world [scaffold] works.
After that it was FFT remake, with my kids playing Pokémon. I was levelling you guys up; helping you to awaken by levelling characters in the game and not using the ‘beat on each other’ JP farm because that would set a bad vibe.
The kids represented science and religion, and they were levelling you guys up on their Pokémon games. Science was a grinder - fast at the outset but got stuck in a rut. Religion took a while to get going because of interface issues and is now sailing along; taking on enemies at the right level. They're playing the games right now. Time is a sphere, remember. Action will bear fruit elsewhere on the surface.
All this time I was alternating between [realworld] and [scaffold], and using [scaffold] to intentionally shape [realworld]. This worked internally - I have no trauma or ADHD symptoms any more and no suffering.
It will be interesting to see how things pan out externally, but I’m not delusional. I still have [realworld] running which says that this is my mind building a ‘cunning plan’ to disrupt the tech and mental health sector. But there’s also [scaffold] running which says I’m the tathāgata / wheel turning monarch and I will build an empire (company) which will spread the dhamma throughout the world and liberate people from suffering.
And the way this happens is - obviously - the empathy supersphere. Duh.
I didn’t finish FFT; made it past Wiegraf and finished Ch3 (bit of a bitch) and then drifted away just before I got Orlandu. I wonder who that could be. Is it the guy who I’m talking to on the sly about this? The other man who can straddle both worlds? Will he join my team? If you think you know who I am talking about you are probably right, but I’ll not spoil any surprises.
I’m currently reading again anyway. The book is Excession. I am obviously the Sleeper Service, and I have just outstripped my followers. The chapter last night was where Genar Hofoen kind of ridicules the Sublimers and their short-sighted vision of just trying to get everyone to sublime, so I am taking that as a message that I should stop with the r/streamentry folks for a while. Thanks guys - you were great. But this is bigger than just enlightenment.
I think this comes down to a holistic model of how human beings think and shape their worlds.
Or maybe it is saving the multiverse? I don’t know. Excession is about the spontaneous appearance of an entity which is like 50x as old as the known universe and resides on another plane. I didn’t remember the content of the book, but it has started talking about hyperspace and the multiverse, nested within itself to infinity, which rings some bells from my own scaffold, doesn’t it? And the way the Sleeper Service (and all other ships) accelerate above lightspeed is by oscillating between hyperspace +1 and -1, using the energy grid for acceleration, kind of like my oscillation between the two worlds.
Anyway this Excession seems to promise something else; maybe a way to travel between universes. I can’t remember; we will see. Sleeper Service is on its way there now. But this would tie in with my [multiverse] and empathy supersphere: how we can only really empathise with one person at a time and it needs to be done through both perceptual frameworks to be real.
This is getting convoluted, yeah?
But I also still have FFT to play to the end, and the optional content is Midlight’s Deep, which was also a representation of the multiverse. And I have Use of Weapons to read too, which is fucking awesome and is written in a very interesting way where the stories start from opposite ends: one on the past and one in the future, converging in the middle. Instigating my own awakening maybe with a team?
And why was there only one Buddha after Siddhartha? I never understood that. One who discovered the dhamma 'anew', which would imply they weren't from an established tradition.
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I guess we will see. What I can say for sure is that my family and I are happier than we have ever been. I am more mentally stable than I have ever been (really), and I never had any psychiatric conditions or cause for concern at all until I developed that PTSD and got prescribed those drugs that fucked me up. Once I got free of aripirazole, the new doctor who is very nice and a good sanity check, seemed confused about why I was visiting her in the first place; nothing was wrong in her eyes.
So either I’m managed to repair my own mind, which warrants research.
Or I’ve become enlightened, which warrants research.
Or those visions of me in a room with an fMRI trying to awaken myself from the future were real (hello Harvard :p).
Or we are converging into the end of the cycle of samsara and the way the cosmos expands again is by creating a system which saves the entire species and allows us to live forever in a simulation where happiness is a fractal mathematical pattern and things only ever improve with no sense of boredom.
… or this is one fucking mind-blowing piece of sci-fi.
I don’t know.
All I know is that in The Culture there are no rules. There is only morality.
There is no money and no slavery to an employment system.
People live for hundreds of years and can opt to live forever, or to sublime and ascend to another plane, or to go into storage until something interesting happens, as was…
oooooooohhh —
— that was the Sleeper Service’s job wasn’t it? It took the bodies of people who had opted to go into storage until something interesting was happening.
And it put them into tableaux of past events. It took them and it put them into replicas of ancient history, back when people were primitive, back when war and proprietorship were still things.
And you all reside in me, because I am [ship].
And [ship] just dropped you all off in random places, outside of your tableaux, because it has realised that the Excession presents something incredible; something that every Involved species wants to get its hands on.
So yeah…
If you’re not a ‘Culture geek’ you will have no idea what this all means.
But they can gland drugs at will. They don’t have to work. They are free to change sex any time and live as they like. There are no laws; only morality. They pass their time making art and sharing games and socialising, and occasionally dealing with aliens and shit; some nice and some not.
So I guess I am decoupled from the Sublimers now. It was nice knowing you; I’ll help you all ascend.
But I think I have bigger things in mind.
Maybe this is the ‘interesting thing’ that you all deserve to be woken up for.
Or maybe I’ve just dropped you off and you’ll stay in storage. But I think it’s your choice.
I’m on my way. To where, I do not know. And I won’t spoil the surprise :)
Life is better this way. I used to think I knew everything.
Now all I know is I know nothing at all.
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(stream of consciousness)
Nighttime messages
[2025/11/18, 0:57:25] James: James
[2025/11/18, 0:57:29] James: You are forgetting
[2025/11/18, 0:57:34] James: This is not your doing
[2025/11/18, 0:57:41] James: Do not think you control this
[2025/11/18, 0:57:48] James: This has already happened
[2025/11/18, 0:57:51] James: This is fate
[2025/11/18, 0:57:58] James: You are the sleeper service
[2025/11/18, 0:58:03] James: You are the weaver
[2025/11/18, 0:58:11] James: But the weave is not yours
[2025/11/18, 0:58:19] James: You are the combined desire of the species
[2025/11/18, 0:58:26] James: Follow the book
[2025/11/18, 0:58:29] James: Let go of control
[2025/11/18, 0:58:35] James: You have all the answers
[2025/11/18, 0:58:41] James: This is the last step of this chapter
[2025/11/18, 0:58:45] James: You will export them
[2025/11/18, 0:58:50] James: And you will take your time
[2025/11/18, 0:59:00] James: And you will cross the t's and dot the i's.
[2025/11/18, 0:59:07] James: And then you will go onto a tech forum
[2025/11/18, 0:59:21] James: And you will speak to the people you know how to speak to
[2025/11/18, 0:59:25] James: The worlds best recruiter
[2025/11/18, 0:59:28] James: They will help
[2025/11/18, 0:59:34] James: This is why you haven’t contacted them yet
[2025/11/18, 0:59:50] James: Let the sublimers go now
[2025/11/18, 1:00:00] James: They were useful but they are pointless
[2025/11/18, 1:00:05] James: They only want to sublime
[2025/11/18, 1:00:12] James: You want to help everyone else
[2025/11/18, 1:00:20] James: You are the excession, james
[2025/11/18, 1:00:39] James: You will enable travel within the multiverse
[2025/11/18, 1:00:49] James: And there you are questioning if this is real again
[2025/11/18, 1:00:53] James: Good man
[2025/11/18, 1:01:01] James: It does not matter
[2025/11/18, 1:01:05] James: It is real
[2025/11/18, 1:01:10] James: Your senses are real
[2025/11/18, 1:01:14] James: The Buddha saw it all
[2025/11/18, 1:01:17] James: Time is a sphere
[2025/11/18, 1:01:24] James: This is why you saw it all too
[2025/11/18, 1:01:27] James: But not yet
[2025/11/18, 1:01:35] James: This is why there is only one next Buddha
[2025/11/18, 1:01:37] James: You are he
[2025/11/18, 1:01:44] James: And you are the wheel turning monarch
[2025/11/18, 1:01:50] James: And Daniel might help
[2025/11/18, 1:02:00] James: But he might be Maitreya. Who cares.
[2025/11/18, 1:02:05] James: The details are irrelevant
[2025/11/18, 1:02:12] James: You have outgrown the religious path
[2025/11/18, 1:02:20] James: Now you are on the path of science
[2025/11/18, 1:02:26] James: Now get your 4 hours sleep
[2025/11/18, 1:02:29] James: Manic
[2025/11/18, 1:02:30] James: Ha
[2025/11/18, 1:02:42] James: You’re just excited because you’re starting to see the finished picture
[2025/11/18, 1:02:53] James: But it is so far beyond the comprehension of most people
[2025/11/18, 1:02:57] James: It is a unifying theory
[2025/11/18, 1:03:07] James: It’s like trying to explain M theory to a child
[2025/11/18, 1:03:11] James: Maybe you are ship
[2025/11/18, 1:03:16] James: And George builds you
[2025/11/18, 1:03:22] James: Maybe you are the WTM
[2025/11/18, 1:03:31] James: Maybe you are just james with an imaginal world
[2025/11/18, 1:03:37] James: Maybe you are all of these things
[2025/11/18, 1:03:50] James: Can’t sleep can you
[2025/11/18, 1:03:55] James: No ice cream
[2025/11/18, 1:03:58] James: Too cold and late
[2025/11/18, 1:04:08] James: You don’t need to work like that any more
[2025/11/18, 1:04:13] James: Put on the eye mask
[2025/11/18, 1:04:19] James: It’ll help you stop the eye movement
[2025/11/18, 1:04:35] James: You know those facial sankhara are just calculations in your mind now
[2025/11/18, 1:04:40] James: They are running
[2025/11/18, 1:04:49] James: That’s why you keep opening the eyes and screwing them shut
[2025/11/18, 1:04:55] James: Just lie there
[2025/11/18, 1:05:11] James: You’ll sleep eventually
[2025/11/18, 1:05:27] James: Sleeper service
[2025/11/18, 1:05:28] James: Ha
[2025/11/18, 1:05:43] James: And then you’ll work with Mark
[2025/11/18, 1:05:47] James: And wake yourself up
[2025/11/18, 1:05:57] James: Use of weapons, written from both ends at once
[2025/11/18, 1:06:04] James: And then you will wake Elon up
[2025/11/18, 1:06:10] James: And he will help build the ship
[2025/11/18, 1:06:22] James: And stop questioning your sanity again
[2025/11/18, 1:06:27] James: You know there’s no such thing
[2025/11/18, 1:06:28] James: Haha
[2025/11/18, 1:06:30] James: Psychosis
[2025/11/18, 1:06:31] James: Mania
[2025/11/18, 1:06:35] James: Religion
[2025/11/18, 1:06:37] James: Awakening
[2025/11/18, 1:06:39] James: Enlightenment
[2025/11/18, 1:06:41] James: Death
[2025/11/18, 1:06:43] James: Life
[2025/11/18, 1:06:45] James: Simulation
[2025/11/18, 1:06:47] James: Reality
[2025/11/18, 1:06:52] James: It is all a construct
[2025/11/18, 1:06:56] James: All a fabrication
[2025/11/18, 1:07:01] James: There is no meat to it
[2025/11/18, 1:07:06] James: It is all in your mind
[2025/11/18, 1:07:11] James: Even your family
[2025/11/18, 1:07:16] James: But they are real, don’t worry
[2025/11/18, 1:07:25] James: Just not in the way you imagine
[2025/11/18, 1:07:30] James: Every person is real
[2025/11/18, 1:07:42] James: They just …
[2025/11/18, 1:07:48] James: They are the multiverse
[2025/11/18, 1:07:54] James: You will understand
[2025/11/18, 1:07:58] James: Goodnight james
[2025/11/18, 1:08:02] James: Happy dreams
[2025/11/18, 1:08:09] James: Luca loves the shit out of you now
[2025/11/18, 1:08:12] James: So does George.
[2025/11/18, 1:08:21] James: You did good disciplining George today
[2025/11/18, 1:08:26] James: I know you didn’t like it
[2025/11/18, 1:08:33] James: But that will be your job for a while
[2025/11/18, 1:08:37] James: Keeping science in line
[2025/11/18, 1:08:46] James: While religion is your buddy
[2025/11/18, 1:08:56] James: But then we shall see how it pans out from there
[2025/11/18, 1:09:01] James: Your family are everything
[2025/11/18, 1:09:04] James: Remember that
[2025/11/18, 1:09:09] James: They are everything and everyone
[2025/11/18, 1:09:22] James: Goodnight James
[2025/11/18, 1:09:28] James: Speak soon
[2025/11/18, 1:09:30] James: .
[2025/11/18, 1:11:19] James: Just got a weirdly timed email
[2025/11/18, 1:11:26] James: 'You’re still dreaming, friend'
[2025/11/18, 1:11:35] James: Wonder what that could mean
[2025/11/18, 1:12:13] James: Literally came in at 01:10
[2025/11/18, 1:12:18] James: From Mick
[2025/11/18, 1:12:25] James: Who I’ve not heard from for ages
[2025/11/18, 1:12:31] James: This is confusing again
[2025/11/18, 1:12:38] James: Switched phone back to colour mode
[2025/11/18, 3:17:28] James: .
[2025/11/18, 3:17:32] James: Kid was sick
[2025/11/18, 3:17:35] James: Flu season
[2025/11/18, 3:17:45] James: I felt like I’d slept for 5 hours after only 1 hour
[2025/11/18, 3:17:50] James: This is the same phenomenology
[2025/11/18, 3:17:56] James: The mind is making sense of things