mypractice

partyboatdream // dropping the chase

cycling // how my own growth is deepening

formlessrealms // improving meditation ability

inthewater // empathy deepening and conditioning falling away

flotsam // old conditioning being swept away

clearingthecloset // clearing trauma to make way for joy

leeches // old trauma dies if it cannot feed

anxiety // floating anxiety with no self to attach to

outsidethewall // how it feels to have broken the shell

stringtheory // one way I experience meditation

howiwokeup // the process by which I awoke

whathappenedatschool // my own schoolhood trauma

notesinthecupboard // how I unknowingly reprogrammed myself 

upgradingaddiction // the addiction to end them all

simplicity // paring down the options

cartography // mapping my awakening to the theravāda maps

thetraumaofself // breaking the trauma of my self

theroadofexcess // some of the extremes of my life

dreams // bad dreams as export

repsatthegym // optimising meditation through exercise

trainingcycle // applying training principles to enlightenment

A&Pdream // further insight at night

refiningunderstanding // the dust starts to settle

thereality // the less rosy side of the experience

rebuildingexecutivefunction // rebuilding ef after a meltdown

meltdown // easily overwhelmed while still recovering

aftermath/empathy // some of the negatives

sculptorandclay // choosing how to shape myself

adhdreset // how this has reset my adhd to negligible levels

drugresponse // my response to valproate guanfacine and aripiprazole

peace // feeling an unknown level of peace in life

rethinkingenlightenment // alpha pitch as I realise what happened

awakening // awakening as the same thing across traditions

howtosavethespecies // ambitious plans from my own awakening

ship/sim // how my awakening manifested